In May 2009, I went home with hubby to celebrate my parents 50th Wedding Anniversary and at the same time, my church wedding. It was one of the most unforgettable moments in my life to be able to celebrate two important events at the same time with my family.
Last month, I went home not to celebrate but to mourn for losing Nanay. It was exactly the opposite of what happened two years ago.
I just never had the slightest clue that it was my last chance to see my mother alive. It was so sad that I had never spent more of my time with her and Tatay on that visit. Hubby and I stayed only for a week in my place but we never stayed at my parent's house. We chose to stay in one of my brother's rooms which limited my chance of being with them during my entire stay. I showed up only on meal times, not even at all meal times. Had I known that it was going to be my moment to talk and to laugh with her and to do things for her... OMG!! I should have known but who are we to know the future.
If I am still feeling the pain and if tears are still rolling down my cheek every time I remember her, it's for all those moments that I took her for granted. I have never said "I Love You" to her but she knew what's in my heart. But I could have done much, much more while I was there with her and my father. Life is too short, really very short for everybody who does not see the opportunity to do what is best for the moment. Now I only have her memories and I know that these memories stay forever within me.
Nanay was my best mentor in this vast school of life. I believe she's now home with God in heaven. To you Nay... I LOVE YOU.
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Cely,
This is beautifully written and quite heartfelt. I had tears just reading it. We know you are still mourning the loss of Nanay and will for quite some time. Please know that we are here for you and love you very much.
Elsie
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